Its been one full year since I made the decision to do something about where I was. I knew it wasn't going to be easy, but it had to be done. I had been in the same place for way too long. 23 years.
I didn't really think it through at the time...it had been a long time coming. It was just a matter of when I would get up and move – not go with the flow and ride the waves, but dive...down...deep. I still remember those words – vaguely, but the message was clear...
Only later did the magnitude of what I was about to do sink in...the risks, the sacrifices, the people, the place - but I made a choice.
One year on, my life is different. I'm not saying its "good" different or "bad" different – its just...different...
Theres still that little part of me that wonders if I'm doing the right thing...if I've made the right decision...if I should give it more time...Maybe its in my blood to ask questions...to challenge...to be satisfied and at ease and at rest only when I'm sure. But the thing is, theres something reassuring me that its all ok...that wherever I am and whatever I'm doing, it'll be fine.
And thats enough for me.
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Liz,
He is watching over you,
and i think that despite the troubles or whatever, taking that leap of faith is honourable and He sees it as faithful obedience on your part - give it time - turbulent waters will calm in its own time - just sow your seeds faithfully :)
and i believe of all people, you'll do fine because you are you.
love,
n
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