Monday, September 12, 2005

Why me?

Its 11:49pm…I have an 8am start tomorrow morning…I also have an assignment to finish…or rather start…in the 8 hours and 11 minutes I have left before I have to be in uni…somehow, it doesn’t look like its gonna happen…

This assignment is just…hopeless…I don’t know where to start…and I just don’t feel like doing it…this last run of work has zapped every bit of motivation I had left…I’m running on empty…

And in the morning I’ll be sitting in class…supposedly listening to what the lecturer is talking about…taking notes…nope…that’s not gonna happen…more like I’ll be writing messages, or smsing, or just trying not to jerk too obviously when I start to doze off and then suddenly wake up and snap back into consciousness…

These past few weeks have just been…hectic, busy, tiring, stressful, emotional…to say the least. Theres just been so much to do…and that’s just it…continuously doing things…no time to stop…or even think…its just been go, go, go…or at least it definitely feels like that…assignments to do…tests to study for…work to do…people to listen to…meetings to attend…events to organize…I just feel drained…



And people…I wonder – why is it that the people you’re closest to are also the people that will not only support you, but let you down – the most…they know you – or at least think that they do – speak their mind openly…say what they want, when they want…no hesitations…no stopping…no hindrances…I guess its good in a way coz I know I always say “you need people like that in your life”, and you do…but its always a different story when the tables have turned…when the focus is on me…

I guess I’m just really REALLY looking forward to this mid-sem break – I need it…I want to be able to have time to just sit and admire the rainbow in the sky after the huge storm…to take a walk in the quietness of the country and reflect on the beauty around me…to chat and hang out with friends over great food and strong drinks! I want to enjoy life and live every bit of it to the full…I believe thats the way we were created…


Eenah, thanks for the photos!

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